D O N' T G I V E U P

Everyone has a dream. Even more than one. Some people want to be doctors, engineers, olympic athletes and world leaders, whilst others want to write a novel, be a mom or become a chef, but you never realise how hard it is till you start. That's exactly where i'm at right now. As i'm typing i'm already getting emotional because i'm getting to the point where more sacrifices are being made. I mean no one ever said it was going to be easy, but you never realise how much you, yourself are changing. Someone once told me that

you're supposed to fail, as failure is the stepping stone for success.

Before i started university i never really understood why certain things happened the way they did. Why i'd always fail, even though to others it was "perfectly fine". Why i'd have to work twice as hard as others and why i couldn't rely solely on talent.

 I've definitely never been in this place before. A place where you know that if you want it you've got to get it, and i mean really get it. You've got to pick yourself up when you get disappointed, you've to have faith in yourself and you've got to make those sacrifices. You've got to carry on when your friends no longer like you because you've got to work harder, You've got to want your dream more than you want sleep and you've got to have passion. These are all things that you can say to yourself countless times but until you take the first steps, nothing will change

Faith without works is dead

- James 2:14-26

I wish I could explain to you how literally on the first day of the year till today it has been a constant battle of work, sleep and breaks, but really and truly i've never worked this hard on my dream in my life. Crazy that i'm saying this and i've been given 21 years of life and out of that these 4 weeks have been the hardest, but i secretly love it too.

I have no clue where i'm going but i'm positive that God is taking me somewhere i won't ever believe and i believe that God will do the same for you. It will get much harder than this and you'll wonder why your crying because you got rejected this many times or because this has happened to you and so and so but everything happens for a reason.

You'll gain more experience, you'll become stronger and more independent and you'll be surfing out your comfort zone. In these four weeks, one of the little, but important factors that really helped me are my close friends, i mean the ones who have heard you weep over the phone when you doubt yourself and slap you back into work mode. Those that'll send you a quick text during the week that'll lift your spirits and those that'll send you the most hilarious snap chats that'll have in a laughing fit for at least 5 minutes, keep them and don't forget about them when everyone else pounces on you when you get to your first level of success.

Faith goes a long way, so don't give up! Keep grinding, you'll be surprised with the reward.